whew…
August 18th, 2006
Made it through the first day of school. And I didn’t even cry. Well, ok, I didn’t even cry AT SCHOOL. I may have teared up a little this morning at the house before we left. I may have done it again, after we got back from dropping her off. I may have done it yet again after she got home. But damnit, I didn’t tear up at school!
But you know what the worst part of this hormonal failure of mine was? I made the Kindergartner cry. What a shit I am! I surprised her with a little bracelet this morning and told her that we were both going to wear them today. And if either of us got sad because we missed the other, we could just look at our bracelets and know that the other one was thinking about us. (ha, ha – I’m a dork!) Anyway, of course, I teared up telling her this. And then she did too. And I thought to myself, “You complete ass! Let this poor girl have her fantastic day.” Sometimes I want to kick myself.
Oddly, the whole first day of school thing has been hardest on my 3 year old. But then, many normal days are hard on a 3 year old. First off, she’s a bit of an attention hog, so she’s not loving that the focus has been on her older sister. And even with that jealousy going on, she seemed to desperately miss her sister today. We played, but it is just. not. the. same. A little while after the Kindergartner came home, I heard the 3 year old timidly ask her, “Helena… are you still my best friend?”
Say it now with me, “awwwwwww.”
Entry Filed under: my kiddos
1 Comment
1. Frances | August 20th, 2006 at 4:35 pm
Awwwwwww, could she look any more composed and grown up? Did both little ones miss the Big Girl?
My day is coming, just eight days away, and I will be a big sloppy puddly mess. But this will be at a largish bus stop, so everyone will get to see me being a big sloppy puddly mess. How humiliating.
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